Not been feeling that great mentally this week, suffice it to say that I have a few niggling worries that won’t go away just at the minute. But I have something that rides to the rescue at just the appropriate time.
It’s cricket of course. What would I do without it? Doesn’t bear thinking about. It’s the long weekend this week as we approach another Bank Holiday. The weather is going to just about behave itself and I have four games in a row coming up (three scoring, one umpiring). It’s a kind of sanctuary for me. It’s something that I can look forward to, and a chance to put those niggling worries to one side for a while.
In fact next week, I’m relatively busy with cricket and one or two other things. Much needed. Distraction technique coming into play again.
I’m still coming to terms with the loss of a family member earlier this year and there are days when the brain switches into grief mode. I don’t want it to, but the sadness takes over and that is having an effect on me that I haven’t experienced for a while. The other worries are still there and there are days when I feel like giving up. But I won’t. I will battle on and see that my life will improve. Just have to stay true to myself and see what happens. Just been a very difficult six or seven months in all honesty, but if I show weakness, then the decline will start. Must ward that off.
Looking forward to the next four days though.