Because I’m a bloke and that’s what’s expected of us men isn’t it? To carry on and get on with life as though nothing has happened.
Except this bloke isn’t just getting on with it. Life is difficult at the moment. I’m regressing further back into the shell. But I’m listening to what my mind is telling me. Will the good times return? Not sure at the moment.
I’ve had a few people getting in touch to check in on me but I can’t report anything that is of an uplifting tangent. This is one of my more difficult and low spells I’ve had in a while. But I’m expected to carry on…..after all us men have to be strong and not show emotion. Until things start to return more favourably in my direction, then this is the tone of most of these blog posts. I can’t get into a jokey and happy mood at present; it isn’t happening.
Tomorrow I have a counselling session and I need to let out some frustration and anger. This is bad, and this is real.