I’ve been reading that word a lot lately, especially in connection to Brexit, which dominates hour upon hour of broadcast time and page upon page of newsprint.

Well it’s now applying to me. I was due to go on a cricket tour to Malta at the end of March. Regrettably, I’ve had to withdraw. Why? Personal reasons, mainly around the fact that a sizeable chunk of my income has now stopped and I won’t have much money to take with me on the trip. Plus the fact that I’ve not been well for a while has to be taken into account.

This is not a knee jerk reaction. I’ve been thinking about this for a while now. Things are very unsettled with me at the moment. Money has to go towards necessities rather than the luxury of a holiday. It’s a point of principle. I’ve also lost my enthusiasm. I’m not looking forward to it in the same way that I looked forward to the Portugal trip last October.

Circumstances are different. I need to get myself well. What’s the point of going away when it’s likely that I won’t enjoy it? A lot of stuff has happened over the winter and my mind has been turned off the idea of warmer climes and some relaxation.

There will be other opportunities. It’s just that the time isn’t right at the moment. Things need to be sorted out here. Certain things come first, like my health and well-being, which has taken a massive hit this winter. It’s not been a good time. Money is going to be tight. Spending money that I don’t have to throw away in a foreign country is not appropriate to needs at the moment.

So, I’ve sent an email listing my reasons. It’s not the end of the world. The world will still turn. Cricket will still be happening, just not in late March and early April. And I’m not changing my mind. Health is number one priority above all else, and money needs to be saved too.

A.S.D Brooks

Author: allenbrooks44

44 year old adult living with Autism...