Also determined not to get back to the dark, awful days of 2010, where my world fell apart and was considering not being here anymore.
It’s been a bad start to 2019, but I’m damned if this is the start of those bad times. Certain things and certain agencies are trying to send me spinning back there, but they aren’t going to win. I’m going to win, and come through these setbacks.
Just need some time and some space away from stuff to get these situations sorted out. I’m not going back to 2010. Older, and hopefully wiser now. That won’t stop me feeling hurt, upset, angry, tired and at times browbeaten. Those layers of mental protection are being built up. Some upset gets through. The good times will be there again at some point, just not at this particular moment.