Despite not sleeping terribly well, I was up early to go into the office for a meeting with some school leavers who are doing a project on mental health. The only problem was that the group never showed up, so it was a bit of waste of time.
Still, I had a bit of a incident, where I was caught short. I was waiting outside the office, which was closed initially while I waited for the line manager to show up. My stomach was in knots and I was desperate for the loo. I tried to knock on the doors of the local sheltered accommodation housing but got turned away as I was a total stranger, so I wasn’t surprised there.
The sweat was pouring off me and unfortunately, without labouring the point, I was caught short. While dropping off the stuff in the office, I rushed into the loo and cleaned myself up. It doesn’t happen often but on this occasion, it did. Oh dear.
Then I gave a letter to the line manager, who is running this Peer Support Training. My letter was honest and to the point. I’ve decided to bail out. I’ve been ill the last few days and the disclosures and traumatic stories have been having a detrimental effect on my health, physical and mental. So to safeguard myself, I’ve taken my leave from the course. She appreciated the letter, the honesty and the clear thinking from me. Feel better for outlining my thoughts.
There was another colleague with us and we just sat around chatting while waiting for this group of school leavers. Just a bit of chill time and I feel better now for putting my health first and other things second. Clear thoughts!