Spooling back to Tuesday…

On Tuesday, I attended a selection day for a new venture at one of the mental health organisations I volunteer for. It was selection for Peer Support and a possibility of working individually with people rather than in groups as is the case currently.There were 13 other people in the room and I must confess to not being at my best, at all. I had a sense that I might be rejected and all the hard work of the last three years would disappear down the plughole. The session lasted three hours or so and I came away with a sense that I haven’t made it through to the training. I just didn’t feel confident or felt as though I contributed anything worthwhile. All negativity, which can be the case for me sometimes. So onto Wednesday, and I was relaxing at a small country pub with this old school colleague, sipping a few glasses of something cold on another hot day. I then checked my phone and saw an email that requested that I ring the office. My colleague disappeared to the loo so I made the call.It went something like this:-Line Manager:- I’m afraid it’s bad news….about the selection day yesterday.Me:- I thought so….come on then, I haven’t made it have I?LM:- Yes it’s bad news….that you’ll be working with me for six sessions!!!Me:- (And this is cleaned up) You evil so and so! Oh that’s fantastic news, I’m really pleased.My school colleague was delighted and I’m really pleased to have made it through to the next stage. I nearly didn’t live to see my 46th year after the bad news line! Great wind up from her and naturally I’m looking forward to the training at the end of this month and all through August.I found out a little more about the assessment on Tuesday. The line manager and I get on very well and to preserve impartiality, she wasn’t part of the scoring process. There were two other assessors who don’t know me that well but saw enough in me to put me through to the training! Very, very pleased and I hope something concrete comes out of this, you never know, paid Peer Support work may be the goal. Long way to go yet.I can now feel very pleased to be selected and I hope to give them plenty of commitment and quality from my perspective. Let’s go!!!A.S.D Brooks

Author: allenbrooks44

44 year old adult living with Autism...