3rd June 2010 was when my world fell apart and everything that could go wrong, did go wrong. So much so that I contemplated not being here anymore. A time of my life that has taught me a lot.
Why am I talking about this? Well, for the last eight years, at this particular time, my mood declines and something in my brain flashes back to that fateful day in 2010. I’ve tried various ways of combatting it, and last year, I returned to CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy) to think of ways for that flashback switch to remain off.
This year at this time? Well, apart from a dreadful week last week, this week has been quiet, uneventful and fairly relaxing. My mind seems fairly at ease and the flashback switch is firmly at the off position. The subconscious mind isn’t going back to 2010. It’s focusing on events of tomorrow and of next week, where I have a few things to keep that switch at off. Plenty of activities. Not putting myself under too much pressure and allowing things to happen naturally. Seems to be working, for this week at least.
Eight years ago was terrible. This year might be a turning point where the subconscious mind doesn’t flashback. The traumas have been put in room 101 and that’s where they should stay.