Just want this month to end…

It’s not been a good month, in all honesty. My health, mentally and physically, has been up and down and there’s been lots of other things going on which have had an effect on me.

I was due to go to volunteering this morning, but I feel dreadful, utterly dreadful. Yesterday wasn’t a good day either. By the time the umpires training evening came around, I wasn’t in the best of moods and then something happened with one of the candidates that affected me too. The day started badly, and ended badly.

I thought with a good night’s sleep that things would be better today. It’s a sunny, clear morning, but I’m in an all enveloping gloom. I thought some breakfast would settle things down, but no, I have a sense of numbness that it is going to be hard to shake off today. I don’t want to go out that door. Simple as that. This month hasn’t been good…..and it needs to end without any more mishap. They say bad things that happen shouldn’t affect you mentally, but the brain is like a sponge. I ache everywhere. My posture is hunched and the energy levels have dissipated.

I’m just going to go back to bed and try and rest a bit more. Monday, horrible, Tuesday, horrible. Two more days and it’s February. Life hasn’t been brilliant these last 30 days…

A.S.D Brooks

Author: allenbrooks44

44 year old adult living with Autism...